Dear Mistress Tzarina,
Wow! Thank you, thank you and thank you again. That was everything I'd hoped for and so much more. Definitely the hardest beating I've ever taken... and it's so amazing that I took it largely without bondage! I'm really sore now; I've involuntarily exclaimed a couple of times while sitting down today and had to pretend that I've hurt my back.
I can see some clear red stripes and grazes but mostly I just have one very sore patch on each cheek where you have hit the same area over and over. That was so accurate! There is some bruising starting to show and I think I will literally be black and blue. The whole experience was made so much sweeter by the knowledge that you were obviously enjoying yourself. The idea that you may actually be aroused by beating me is so powerful. What if you couldn't contain yourself and really let go?
I feel like you know me somehow, like I don't have to explain myself to you. I feel understood, accepted and most of all cared for. It was such a privilege that you felt able to chat so openly with me after our session and I just can't wait to meet you again and to experiment with you (or perhaps more accurately to be experimented upon). I'd love to be the boy that you've taken to the woods and tied to a tree...
At the end of the session when you gave me 39 strokes straight, part of me wanted to scream out "please don't stop!" I think at that point that I could have continued till I passed out; it was so intense yet so calm, like the second after a really close lightning strike when everything is silent and white yet totally alive, buzzing and vibrant. Afterwards, as things came back into focus I could see you wiping blood off the cane and I knew I'd crossed a boundary, like some deep inner
orgasm, catharsis after years of waiting and then I felt a little trickle of blood on my thigh, as my cheeks bore the fruit of your efforts and I wanted to cry. And now, if you'll have me, I am yours.
I'm conscious of the effort that you made to warm me up and the skill that it took to enable me to take such hard CP on our first session and I'm so grateful to you for that. I'm left thinking that if I can take such punishment on our first meeting then what an incredible journey could be lying ahead for me in your hands. I'm also aware how much different the experience could be if you were actually genuinely
angry with me!
It's odd but such a relief that I am able to sit and write to you about this without any sexual tension. It's still erotic to think about all this but I'm no longer distracted constantly by arousal and I'm able to keep both hands on the keyboard. I've often figured in recent years that I must resign myself to months of increasing distraction and growing tension followed finally by cataclysmic and brutal relief but for the first time in ages I can imagine integrating my inner masochist into my regular life. It's fantastic that you're so close to Brighton!
I really can't wait to meet you again, I think it will take a little while for my buttocks to recover from Sunday but I hope to visit soon.
In the meantime, take care and thank you again for Sunday.
Simply Yours,
Matt
Wow! Thank you, thank you and thank you again. That was everything I'd hoped for and so much more. Definitely the hardest beating I've ever taken... and it's so amazing that I took it largely without bondage! I'm really sore now; I've involuntarily exclaimed a couple of times while sitting down today and had to pretend that I've hurt my back.
I can see some clear red stripes and grazes but mostly I just have one very sore patch on each cheek where you have hit the same area over and over. That was so accurate! There is some bruising starting to show and I think I will literally be black and blue. The whole experience was made so much sweeter by the knowledge that you were obviously enjoying yourself. The idea that you may actually be aroused by beating me is so powerful. What if you couldn't contain yourself and really let go?
I feel like you know me somehow, like I don't have to explain myself to you. I feel understood, accepted and most of all cared for. It was such a privilege that you felt able to chat so openly with me after our session and I just can't wait to meet you again and to experiment with you (or perhaps more accurately to be experimented upon). I'd love to be the boy that you've taken to the woods and tied to a tree...
At the end of the session when you gave me 39 strokes straight, part of me wanted to scream out "please don't stop!" I think at that point that I could have continued till I passed out; it was so intense yet so calm, like the second after a really close lightning strike when everything is silent and white yet totally alive, buzzing and vibrant. Afterwards, as things came back into focus I could see you wiping blood off the cane and I knew I'd crossed a boundary, like some deep inner
orgasm, catharsis after years of waiting and then I felt a little trickle of blood on my thigh, as my cheeks bore the fruit of your efforts and I wanted to cry. And now, if you'll have me, I am yours.
I'm conscious of the effort that you made to warm me up and the skill that it took to enable me to take such hard CP on our first session and I'm so grateful to you for that. I'm left thinking that if I can take such punishment on our first meeting then what an incredible journey could be lying ahead for me in your hands. I'm also aware how much different the experience could be if you were actually genuinely
angry with me!
It's odd but such a relief that I am able to sit and write to you about this without any sexual tension. It's still erotic to think about all this but I'm no longer distracted constantly by arousal and I'm able to keep both hands on the keyboard. I've often figured in recent years that I must resign myself to months of increasing distraction and growing tension followed finally by cataclysmic and brutal relief but for the first time in ages I can imagine integrating my inner masochist into my regular life. It's fantastic that you're so close to Brighton!
I really can't wait to meet you again, I think it will take a little while for my buttocks to recover from Sunday but I hope to visit soon.
In the meantime, take care and thank you again for Sunday.
Simply Yours,
Matt